doesn't every girl get a fairy tale?

The writing below is not my own. It's from one of the most beautiful women I've ever met, one who has changed my life forever. She's only 18 years old and is teaching me SO much. I asked her if I could share some of the things she writes about because her writing is so real and authentic. It's about her life, her real feelings and experiences from the hood...yes, in Lincoln, Nebraska.

I have changed just a few of the words, not because I even wanted to, but because I was afraid that many would read the writing and focus too much on the profanity and not enough on the pain deep within her heart from which she expresses herself. I wish I didn't have to do that. I also kept the punctuation out, just as she did. If you can find the only place in this writing where she placed a period at the end of the sentence, I think that one little dot behind that sentence speaks volumes, speaks to the emphasis of that particular feeling. Thank you for taking the time to read the message of her heart .....

the mind has its own way and your flesh is another one

how do you heal when your  heart never gets time
to beat without the hurt and pain

nobody really knows what it feels like
to be another lost soul walking the earth alone

never understanding why life can't go my way

or why i can't be loved in this messed up world

every girl out here has a label on them and they don't even know it

you can't trust no one.

you do wrong and it really follows you

you got girls out here going behind each others back

messing with each others boyfriends 

living off the state

just to go to the club

just to meet a man to take home for the night

hopefully if she gets lucky enough she will get a guy who will buy her a meal 

if her convo is good enough she might get 20 dollars out of the deal

its like girls are selling their souls 

to get their nails done

and hair done 

and an outfit for their children 

because their unfit boyfriends or baby daddy out there

giving it to everyone their baby mama knows

so yes it sucks

to live in a world alone

not knowing where these days will take you

our lives are filled with anger

and madness

and frustration

we feel overpowered and unloved

so we're out here in the cold world

selling our bodies just to make it through a day

what about us

why don't we get heard

is it because were from the other side

and no one believes that we will make it out

so we keep doing all the things we do everyday

cuz its what were used to

and its how we live

its how we survive

so keep your judgment to yourself

cuz its about time for the world to see what its like 

for girls in the hood where anything goes

and the main goal is to keep your mouth closed

girls **** for fun

girls **** for freedom

girls **** for peace

girls **** for understanding

we **** for love

our mothers tell us one thing but we do another

we want thugs

a cold hearted careless man who lives with no direction

doesn't every girl get a fairytale