Not a day goes by when I don't want to take pictures. On the rare days when I feel less inclined or motivated to take pictures, I have a burning desire to write. Both writing and photography are undoubtedly my passions in life, my therapy. I write to release what's going on inside of my mind. I take photos to share what's going on inside of my world. The two together enable me to share a deeper part of myself that I typically hide from most. I'm a master at masquerading myself in public, but when I'm involved in my passions, it's a real part of me.
In the past, I've always kept most of it to myself. I'll be honest, I'm scared to death to let people see too much of me. Something within me, which I'm almost certain is the prodding of the Holy Spirit, is telling me that I need to use my passions, and even share them (as uncomfortable as it may be at times), to open up a little more of my real self to others.
I sat down today, after reading other people's blogs for the past couple weeks, and thought about what I could or should write about. I told Paul I wanted ideas of certain things I could write about each day. As an example, I said "Some people give recipes one day, will write about organization ideas another..."
In the middle of me telling him this, he started laughing uncontrollably. He laughs because he understands me (often better than I understand myself) and he knows that me, trying to regulate myself, is a BAD idea! The more routine I put myself into, the more likely I am to try it, and fail at it miserably. The more spontaneous I allow myself to be, the more effective I become. It's only taken me 33 years to figure that out.
So, in the next few weeks, you are going to see more of the real me...I'll share music, lyrics, quotes, pictures, recipes, whatever I feel like it....in an effort to put myself out there a little bit more.
*Sigh*
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