Day 5 - Ups and Downs and All Around

This was one of the weirdest days for me. Not just diet-wise, but life-wise. I feel like it was three days all mixed into one. And because I can't find a way to make it flow for you in words, you're going to kind of experience the mayhem along with me that will hopefully, by the end of this blog, leave you saying "I just wasted five minutes of my life I'll never get back."

Welcome to my mind...

Today, I woke up motivated like never before. For one, I had to prove to Paul that I could run in the morning, against his belief that I couldn't wake up to do it. I know he was using reverse psychology on me, so in essence I suppose he won. For another, I had to get out of our bedroom. Hmmm...how can I say this nicely and in the most lady-like way possible....? It smelled. Rancid. Let's just say the cleansing part of the diet apparently began to work late yesterday and into the night and we had no control over the matter. It wasn't as bad this morning as it was last night when we tucked in to bed, but we got a good laugh out of it all. Immature, I know...

I ran around in our neighborhood, not far just over 2 miles. It's the first time I have ever run in the morning on my own initiative. I was pretty proud of myself for that. The only frustrating part about it was that I found I wasn't the only one up (it was 7am, so not "early" like some runners). People were leaving for work and pulling out of their driveways. I had to deal with people letting their dogs out to go to the bathroom before work and then chasing me, the no-look driveway puller outers (real word, I'm sure) and the awkward looks from those passing me on the same side of the sidewalk wondering if I'm running towards them to pass them or rob them.

I got home, still motivated, and started folding laundry after Paul left to go to work and before the kids got up. I don't watch TV at all but I wanted to today for some reason. I got onto Netflix and looked for a TV show to watch and I ran across um...MacGuyver!!! Every bit as perfect as I remembered it. I watched one full episode and found myself back in my junior high days saying "Oh Mac! You did it again". I never did get around to matching socks.

But on to the cleansing part of the day. Cleansing is RIGHT. Today, it kicked in. How can I complain about a cleanse that includes THIS for lunch? We were to each eat two 10-oz portions of lean beef along with 6 whole tomatoes. Gross. Tomatoes? How does one eat 6 tomatoes in one day? I couldn't stomach the idea of it so I literally ate one tomato and chugged a thing of V8. To me, that's good enough. The beef was so good. It felt like we were actually eating something real for once. However, something happened between me eating lunch and later on, as I found myself laying on the bed in extreme pain for over 2 hours. I have a history of a very sensitive stomach and have been struggling anyway with some stomach issues. For some reason, it flared up again and I was miserable. I laid in bed for awhile, then finally fell asleep and dreamed about cliff divers for some reason and woke up feeling a little bit better.

I could hardly stomach the idea of having to eat another tomato for dinner, so I skipped it. And I could hardly eat any of the beef, either. So today felt like somewhat of a fail for me. I couldn't even drink water. Everything hurt. At the same time, I know I needed to because the whole purpose of today's meal plan is to get rid of the uric acid that has been building up from previous meals. Haha. I said uric....I don't know why that was just funny.

So today was yet another struggle for me. I can see why they said you will lose your desire for sweets now. I've lost desire for ALL foods. (that's a lie)... but seriously, is this a cleanse of toxins in my body or a cleanse of my innermost will and desire to function normally?

The one positive part of my day today was that the kids and Paul went with me to the track later in the evening when it cooled off. My goal for the summer was to break an 8 minute mile, which for me has always seemed impossible. When I started to run, I felt awesome. It was a nice surprise, given the fact that I felt so awful most of the day. When I got across the line for my mile, I stopped my watch and it said 7:54. I know that doesn't probably doesn't sound like a big deal to you, but I've never been under an 8 minute mile...I don't think ever. So I'm ending my day on a positive note.

So, like I said, a weird day...kind of all over the place. And I don't' really feel like I followed the cleanse all that well. Tomorrow, is more beef and vegetables. I hope I do better.

For the record, no one chews tomatoes louder than my husband. And I never thought I'd say this, but it's pretty cute...